Friday, June 5, 2009
-8:17 PM im really not in the right state these few days.
the smallest gesture or action and lightest word can affect me.
i just seem to take things TOO SERIOUSLY.
*laughs at myself
i dunno what's going on in my brain,
where all the positive thoughts escape within me,
and im filled with negative thoughts.
enough to flood me to hell.
im never this way.
where is the happy wanlin?
who is always laughing from the bottom of her heart,
treating everything seriously and never tries to look beyond needed.
why am i stuck with a different wanlin,
who always think that the world HATES her.
and everyone is out there to go against her,
and will never accept her for who she is.
this is ironic.
i kept telling others not to be pessimistic.
yet im the one being pessimistic.
and keep thinking i have nothing.
so what's up with this wanlin?
annoying, irritating, negative etc.
and i cant even do anything to change it.
im getting sick of this life.
what has the world come to?
smile for a better tomorrow