Thursday, April 2, 2009
-5:57 PM yest,
1ST of APRIL.
first time i really hope there was a april fools joke.
morning went to sch early even though no morning practice.
went to hall to chat...
no lessons and had rehearsals in the hall.
was a very fun rehearsal with laughters etc etc.
tuning was quite fast.
and then prepared for sch.
on the bus to sch was filled with laughters and our confidence.
with everyone believing in one another that we can do it.
reached conference hall.
saw other bands and some of the members began to worry.
but wasnt really very scared before the competition.
this was really the first time im not scared.
2 years ago SYF and genting i was quite worried before hand.
anyway everything went well.
and i really think we played our best.
with everyone giving their very best for the two pieces.
went back inside.
with many conductors telling us we played well.
high hopes on ourselves.
but when the results was announced,
everyone was devasted.
2 years ago,
we sat in the same conference hall awaiting for our results for seventh night of july + sunrise.
everyone thought the same way too.
it would be a medal that starts with G.
yet for both times,
we didnt get G,
but S.
nothing could express what we really felt at the moment.
esp for those that joined the SYF for both times.
and the same situation with everyone holding eachother's hands and drop eveything immediately when the results announced.
yet this time,
i hoped it was an april fools joke.
im naive.
not to accpet the fact that we got a silver.
but i couldnt help but being so,
esp when everyone of us know that we done our best and we could really got a G.
NCWO was very quiet after the results.
all the laughters from before the competition was gone.
on the bus back to sch,
the bus was quiet.
except pohyih, joe and mrlum walking around to console everyone.
mrlum made me feel upset.
when he came and told me he herd nice saxo sounds today.
and he is proud of us.
i feel so upset for making them upset.
saxos, trombones and flutes sections the ones crying.
as the results was devastating,
esp for the sec4s and sec5s with this year being the last year with NCWO.
back to bandroom.
and i realize that there are a lot of people who are very strong.
they were utterly sad too, yet they did not express out anything.
i couldnt help but tear.
my tap just couldnt off.
saw mrlum and mrpng.
feel super upset that we disappoint mrpng.
but the worst thing was.
mrpng felt bad for himself.
cause we said to him WE TRUST YOU SIR.
and he felt that he disppointed us.
BUT sir,
you were the one that brought us to this stage.
you were the one that trained us to this stage.
you were the one that encouraged us that we can be better than others.
you were that one that said we had the potential to play inn.
and you were the one that brought NCWO to the stge we are now.
you arethe BEST conductor we had.
pls do not think so negatively.
NCWO loves you and not want to make you think that you are at fault.
;)
today,
went to sch at usual time as morning practice even though no more morning practice.
von and i came in the morning as we still cant forget the morning practice.
sat at the back of quadrangle whiloe waiting for flagraising.
then peisi, alexia and darren came and sat down.
chatting bout band.
makes me feel sad again.
when i told myself not to cry anymore.
then more sec4 band members came.
and in the end more than half of the members sat down with us for a little chat.
it feels so warm.
for so many members to come down together as everyone couldnt forget NCWO.
this is so touching.
mdmchow announced the results for our syf.
cheered very loudly and my tears burst out after that.
im sorry to everyone if i seemed very tear-y today.
i really cant control it.
anyway.
thinking throught throughoutly.
we played our best.
we ut in all our effort in the competition.
so i guess the medal is really not as important as compared to the effort and heart we place into playing the two pieces.
it may be a S, G, GWH.
but our effort is always recgonised by the conductors,
alumnis and the tutors.
im sure all the members also have no regrets in the two pieces we played.
so eventhough we got a S.
our effort is still the best in our hearts and we should never forget the times we spent together as that's what the most important thing.
=)
NO MORE COUNTING DOWN.
AS EVERYTHING CAME TO AN END.
smile for a better tomorrow