Sunday, February 22, 2009
-1:41 PM im seriously sick and tired of all the shoutings at home.
all the anger, disappointment.
i wan things to get on smoothly.
but i guess this is a wish that will never come true.
i hope for no more screamings.
yet no one wants to give in to one another.
is this a very diffcult wish to come true?
why other families are always so happy,
yet ours is always filled with shoutings?
this is not the family i want.
this is not the misery i wish to get.
im serioualy tired of quarreling with jie,
asking mummy not to scold jie and daddy,
telling daddy dun get so agitated.
IM TIRED OF IT.
things get even worse now.
why must we have conflicts?
i know there are misunderstandings,
there are hatred and irritated times.
BUT THEN is it that diffcult to cooperate with one another?
im really tired.
im sick of being the clown trying to make everyone laugh at myself.
sick of trying run everywhere just to make things work out.
sick of making myself jump between the places.
sick of keeping everything to myself,
yet trying to make the rest not be so awkward.
has anyone ever thought of my feelings?
im not there for everyone to laugh at.
im not always there to resolve the simplest conflict you guys have.
i can be real tired at times.
and now im really tired.
so i dun wish to get myself into such things anymore.
smile for a better tomorrow