Wednesday, July 27, 2011
-1:45 AM 1 yr since the last post.
initially closed down the blog cause i bet im not blogging anymore,
but nowadays i needed to take a slight breathe from the overpowering workload.
so back again.
oh wells.
time flies.
i really cant believe how much i've been through and it's 105days left to a lvls.
i really wish to do well for my a lvls.
dilemma between dropping and not dropping.
dilemma between studying and using com.
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feeling very tired about how things are coming about now.
i want to do well,
but i want my schloarship too.
i dont wish to put extra burden for my parents,
so i really hope to achieve that schloarship.
but WHAT IF
i cant even do well?
what if i cant even get into uni?
my results now are simply,
BAD
i really dont wish to face the truth,
but i know i have to.
105days left.
time is seriously running short.
im tired,
but yet i've to buck up MORE now.
i know i should study harder,
stop using my com as much,
i should be motivated,
but everything seems so cliche.
no matter how much i wish to work hard,
there's always something pulling me back,
and i really dont know what is it.
my laziness? my sleepiness?
guess the only choice is to conquer it.
105 days left.
what have i actually done?
truthfully? NOTHING.
it's time to be motivated.
esp since i do not wish to retain or cry on the day i get my results.
OK DONE RATTLING! =)
smile for a better tomorrow
Thursday, June 17, 2010
-1:04 AM WOOOHOOOO~
had so much fun today with babes!
i guess i laughed so much to make up for my whole month of laughter.
hahaha.
really love the times together.
seriously,
so what if we're in different schools!
if people ever see how we spend our time together today,
we would have thought we're all separated now?
we're still as close as ever~!
=))))
LOVE YOU GUYS!
SARANGHEYO~
<33333
SERIOUSLY
STOP BASHING OTHER IDOLS JUST BECAUSE YOUR IDOLS DIDNT GET ANYTHING.
im getting annoyed over the fact that SO MANY PEOPLE ARE saying as though the idols who get it sucks and yours is the best.
oh pls
DISCRIMINATE US FANS ALRIGHT.
BUT DONT EVER TEST OUR PATIENCE BY SAYING OUR IDOLS.
looking at your tears, i cant help but tear along with you.
i just cant seem to stop falling in love with you once again!
smile for a better tomorrow
Friday, June 11, 2010
-12:44 AM 1 and a half weeks passed since the start of holidays!
what have i done?
good question for myself.
busy with workshops ccas etc during holidays.
didnt even have time to sit down with my friends for h2h talks.
sometimes i wonder,
do friends still stay on forever?
my pri sch friends who've been through thicks and thins with me.
9 and 10 years of my life with them.
impressive isnt it.
sometimes i'm shock by myself.
i've spend more than half of my life with these 2 friends!
no doubt we aint as close as before since we all have our own life,
but who cares!
thanks for being such good friends all these while.
even though i know you both wun see this but still A BIG THANKS! =))
SEC SCHOOL FRIENDS
made a lot of friends in sec school,
but im glad i really made a few close friends who accept me for who im.
even though i might be crazy,
i might be irreasonable,
i might be annoying.
they still continue to accept me for who i really am.
from quarrels to being intimate.
from misunderstandings to having talks of our favourite idols all day long.
THANKS BABES!
cant imagine how would i be like if i didnt have friends like you guys! =)))
JC friends
many of them are all forgiving and super friendly.
however,
plentiful who annoy me at times.
yep im still showing the angel side of me (excluding the bitching part),
so none of them realize i might be the worse enemy they should have.
OPPPPS! Xb
hahahaha but still love all the nice friends i've made since i came to JC.
esp when im in a new environment and i've to start making new friends from zero.
LOVE YOU GUYS ALL THESE WHILE! =)))
what a nice confession i made.
hahaha.
just thought through and i realize how important friends are in your life.
ya i know studies is important.
but imagine standing at the top of the world,
with no one to celebrate the happiness with you.
you can only enjoy the happiness by yourself.
it's just kindda sad.
>_< so really appreciated the love and care my friends gave me. it shaped who im today! THANKS! =)))
LOVE THIS LYRICS! <333
SS501 - LET ME BE THE ONE
The only one in the world that makes me shine
YOU’RE THE ONE IN THE MILLION
Among the many stars in the world, the one place where I can rest easy
My happiness, sadness, smiles, and tears, they are all only for you.
If I am with you I don’t have anything to be afraid of
smile for a better tomorrow
Monday, June 7, 2010
-11:49 PM about a month since i last blogged.
but gonna be a super fast post too.
haha.
holidays was totally not holidays with so much things to do.
workshops ccas etc.
but having good impression on the workshops im attending!
never knew how fun workshops can be like.
hahaha.
gossiping sessions + h2h sessions with friends/cca mates.
love how we opened up to each other!
this might not a super bad holidays afetrall!
excluding the part where i have midyears after holidays and i havent touch even a page of the notes.
>_<
WOOO i love it.
but i know i should never get too into this.
OPPPS~
wo hao fan jian ah!!
smile for a better tomorrow
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
-12:20 AM WOO AMAZING 12.20AM now~
still doing my dear GPP!
shit a little night-highness now!
all thanks to some dropbox thingy!
hahahaha.
havent been so happy for quite long!
how i wish everyday would be like today!
gossiping sessions to start off the day.
tutorials all completed without any worries.
assignments all done neatly and handed in on time.
test that i have faith in!
joking around with my friends in classes and breaks.
at night used a little com and complete the rest of my PW work with a little chat in between with my friends.
night high-ness with someone for 1-2hours on msn + new stuffs to amaze me every now and then!
hahahahhahahahahaha.
HOW I WISH EVERYDAY WOULD BE LIKE TODAY!
no worries no anger only happpy thoughts!!!
>_<
smile for a better tomorrow
Saturday, May 8, 2010
-10:11 PM finally found time out of the piles of homework that are killing me.
PHEWWWWW
many things happened....
i always admired and wished i was not those doer and saigang warriors,
cause they are always doing everything without hoping for credits.
yet now,
im the saigang warrior.
im not a fan of doing everything for everyone,
but if it makes the whole situation works,
i dont mind doing things provided people appreciate it.
but this time,
no one appreciate it.
moreover,
some even doubted my abilities and felt that the things me and my friend did was lousy and hopes to chnage just because he diddnt want to do it.
yes i know you are the vice captain now.
but does that mean that you can just throw all your responsibilities away and sit there while waiting for pigs to fall from the sky?
you always think you did a lot of things,
but no one ever see the actual product of your SO CALLED HARDWORK!
i've always hated freeloaders,
moreover when it's in my team or near me.
how dare you comment on my work when you didnt even fucking put in effort to help us when me and my friend always stayed up until 1plus just to complete everything?
how dare you keep requesting to chnage just because you think the thing will fucking spoil your dumb image when you didnt help out?
yes i might not have done a perfect job,
but at least im happy with myself for putting in effort.
how dare YOU!
someone who did nothing dare to say you helped out during the games?
someone pls tell me what kind of justice is this?
so those who did everything is just gonna not take credits and kept in the dark,
when someone who did nothing gets all the credits when he does nothing but complain, complain and complain.
to the whole team,
i dont really appreciate how we're working now.
i hope this method of working better improve.
otherwise what's point of sayig we're a team,
when some do everyhting while some just sit there waiting for the results.
smile for a better tomorrow
Saturday, May 1, 2010
-1:10 AM everything is so against me today.
yep and i really mean EVERYTHING.
take back my words for saying my class is very great.
i doubt my words once again.
why did i waste my time running down to the bakery shop just to get a cake at 10pm when nobody appreicate it and are all treating it as though it's so troublesome.
i didnt offer to help just to receive all these bullshit comments and reactions from you guys.
i meant to help since there's no one willing to help.
yet the response was just dont care attitude.
i dont care whether you are strssed about school work or not,
CAUSE IM ALSO STRESS!
hello people
i have 2 damn busy ccas while some of you just wanna continue be self centered and mind your own business.
i have to have good grades like anyone of you too and it's not as though i'm there just to bloody serve you.
seriously,
not happy with me?
deal with it!
tell me what's my need to keep enduring all your sacarsm, criticism, ignorance.
YES!I'VE GOT NO NEED TO ENDURE AT ALL THANKS.
i've been keeping it within for me for damn long,
and it's not like i dont have a mood or anger.
sorry i've a totally irritable CHARACTER,
not happy? live with it.
i'm not one just to allow you guys to take advantage of,
moreover, stepping over me.
if you guys think i'm easy to bully,
think twice again.
i can slimply put you down with my words.
THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE PEOPLE! seriously THANKS.
and the annoying isle is getting on my nerves.
yes i know it's hard to plan,
it's hard to organise etc.
but why do you guys have to keep spamming messages non-stop for over 10 relay messgaes in about 2 hours?
seriously,
and what's up with the compulsory camp details?
who ever says that isle is our only committment and when we have to commit in our other ccas too?
yes i know it's important,
but what's up with the idea of throwing people off team for not going.
it's just trying to add on to our frustrations about our pi along with the stupid messages everyone start spamming.
the teachers are also damn lame for throwing the people out of the team for missing this camp.
ya so it's when you see people fainting on the spot and falling ill that you will finally allow people to go off?
wow i really hope such things happen,
so you can finally realize the fact that people are really tired and stressed about their life.
ERRRRRRRRRRRRR
damn pissed off today.
hope i wun break down in school again!
hate myself for being so weak at times!
>_<
smile for a better tomorrow